OMG! I just simply lost my words for this. I totally don't know how else to advice my dearieee most beloved boifren to control his expenses on his car. Months after months, boys can really spend on cars don't they. What if we girls wanna go out for shopping or maybe eat at a fancy restaurant once in awhile.. their answer will totally be a "Nono" innit?

I wonder, a hundred bucks is nuthing to them. But when it comes to shop for his lovable gf over here, it always spells as e.x.p.e.n.s.i.v.e . urhh~ I never ask for anything though and I know he's never been culcalative towards me but I so need him to learn the definition of "saving". How am I suppose to trust if he's serious being with me if he keep on spending on irrelevant things. Till what age should I wait for him to propose me then? 40?? if the savings is enough by then though~ +_+

Ohh God, please let him now what was the message I was trying to convey to him. I love him and I hate people spending money for such unimportant stuffs. It's not wrong to have a hobby or interest but you gotta spend based on your ability to spent innit?

*SPEECHLESS MODE**



Do you have a dream job? Have you ever let go that chance of your life without thinking any longer and regretted? Hell yea, I am in that situation.

Ever since I was a little girl, I have always dream of flying, going to people's country and learn about their culture. I am obsessed with beautiful cabin crew uniforms and envy how beautiful and lucky they can be.

When I was 19, right after I was done with my hospitality course..final year's practical.. I walked-in for this cabin crew recruitment agency and wallaaa! I was there.. I WAS THEREEEE!! Can you imagine?? That job that I had always dream of.. but it last for awhile cuz of my stupid decision making skills ... i quite half way.. I miss my mum.. very much.. and she was alone I just dont have the heart to live her behind for my own satisfaction.. I'd lost my dad.. and mummy is just the only one whom I have right now.. if i were to loose her.. I'll regret for my whole life~ :(

Now, seeing my friends flying here and there.. I envy them and how I wish I was still with them.. I can never fly again... what a life.. such a looser i am eyh? +_+

Some memorable pictures of mine.. i miss you guys.. *tears*















Ever listened to this song before? The part "Merdeka!" actually make me fall into tears everytime when i listen to this song. Thinking how Babah and his fellow friends used to sacrifice their life for our country. People can say that I am just being ... whatever that word is but the truth is, I am proud of my dad.. proud of those people who were there when the Union Jack was pulled down. Does it ever cross your mind what will happen if those heroes did not have the courage to pull the flag down on that day? We might not be an independent country yet I guess.

Babah used to tell me, when Tunku Abdul Rahman wanted him to pull down the Union Jack, there were hundreds of British Armies around them ; armed, waiting for the right moment to shoot down whoever who have the guts to bring down their flag but Babah said, he did it for his country ..it was worth doing and Alhamdulillah..52 Years of Merdeka .. thanks to the Heroes!~ I heard there were 5 of them on that memorable day, Arwah Babah was the one who pulled down the flag when the clock striked 12am on 31st of Aug 1957. I'm proud to be his daugther!!~ :) They all have passed away years ago including my most beloved dad, leaving one behind. I forgot his name but he's almost 109 years old today :)

But as the Malays used to say, "Harimau Mati meninggalkan Belang, Manusia Mati meninggalkan Nama". People nowadays celebrate Merdeka inappropriately. No offense, but that's not the way we Malaysian should be acting. It is all about carrying the pride of our country and us as the people of Malaysia. Happy 52nd Merdeka Day to all dearest Malaysians ♥

I googled this few pictures of Babah online :)





Today is like our first Buka puasa together. Feels like ..wow.. hehe :)

Like any other ordinary buka puasa, we talked mostly about our past relationships.. (mcm baru kenal semalam.. LOL) where did it all went wrong.. and it was nice to know.. eventhough a lil bit of jealousy occurs in the middle.. ye laa.. like you won't get jealous if your bf talks abt those sweet moments when they were together kan..aiyaya~ o.0
But I managed to control my jealous-ness .. pass is pass though .. :D

ok.. chill yin.. chill... im happy and full!~ *burp!*












After years of suffering from Traumatize Love Experience, I decided to give my heart a second chance to believe in love once again. And yeah, Alhamdullilah with the blesses of people around me, everything seems to turn out well this time :)

For the first few months of sharing our love, there were lots of arguments been brought up, we love each other but yet understanding still wasn't there at that time. But I don't blame neither of us cuz in this relationship, we tend to learn about each other's flaws instead of letting lust to take control of our love.

He was so patients with me being so stubborn and emotional and sensitive, yada yada yada.. but he never quites. He stopped me from doing unimportant things, he managed to stop my bad habits and he managed to proof to me that he actually loves me for who i am. Ain't because of my looks (which yeaa.. horrible!), ain't bcuz of my kaching! (not working now though..) .. he spent most of his time with me.. oohh God... u have no idea how thankful i am to have him in my life..

I know .. u guys will go like..."nehh.. nuthin special.. u're juz madly in love..it will soon be gone.." hell yeahh i am love!!~ hehe :D I just wish this feeling will last for eternity.. cuz it's simply BEAUTIFUL :)

I love you Mohd Hafiz ♥






Total disaster~ A conflict in life where by I have to choose the so called "Career" Well.. decision has been made, hospitality has always been my passion but then again, there are alot of needs to be fulfilled.



.. I so need to get my degree . . (which I will never get if I'm still a hotelier)
.. I need a higher pay
.. I need time to be with my dearest mum..family and beshtiesss
.. and ofcourse quality time with my sayang :) ♥ ♥

In order to complete the above desires.. *LOL* I took a challenge to join banking.. which is kinda HORROR in a way.. but yea.. challenges keep you moving forward ritey? ;) So I went to Public Bank yesterday for an Interview and they offered me the position of Sales Executive for Bancassurance. Good pay .. tough task .. no harm trying I guess.

Wish me luck.. they gonna call in 2 weeks time. fewh~