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THE FINANCIAL BREAKDOWN!

2010-05-30T00:49:00.000-07:00

THE FINANCIAL BREAKDOWN!

Been a decade since I last updated my bloggie. Well yea, life has been so tough. Hardly have time to stare at my Ms. Lappie anymore <3> First of all, I'm having a huge financial breakdown now. Money has always been a huge issue in my life. Yea ok.. my pay is good.. but too many commitments..almost half of my pay GONE! at this age dont expect me to earn 10k a month to pay up all this debts! +_+ I know I can do this and I know I can be strong like how mum used to be. I know this is all just an obstacle in life which everyone have to go through. But I'm not strong anymore, I can't do it anymore. I don't perform in anything like how i used to shine when I was younger. It's true, when you have money, you have all the friends that you need in this whole wide world. but when you need help, even the closest person to you might not be able to help you out. To me, marrying a rich man just to fulfill you dreams and getting what you want is just being so materialistic and STUPID. But I dont blame THEM, THE PEOPLE who do so cuz they were just finding the solution to end their misery. You give some you loose some. Nothing in this world comes for FREE. I thought of getting married by mid of next year, but I dont think I am gonna do so. I will just make my life even WORSE. Unless if he change his attitude by hook or by crook. I choose to be with him but i dont wanna suffer anymore and if we ever gonna get married i want it to last forever after! FINANCIAL has always been the issue why we end up arguing ever since the pass years.. over n over again. I need to end this NOW! I cant afford to cry anymore :(
I have taken all the efforts to help you change but it seems useless. You say you wanna change and to give you time but all the time that I had given you has gone to waste. Yes, you spend most of your precious time with me, but I need a life time guarantee that FINANCIALLY you can take care of me and not vice versa. Writing this blog ain't about blaming. It's just that..I dont know what else to do. Each time when I asked for a break up you say you love me and you say you will change but you never take the CHANGE seriously. Im never fade up with you, im never bored with you but I JUST WANT THINGS TO CHANGE FOR GOOD. cuz if this keeps on going, I'm gonna end up being a psycho! A last wish from you lil princess here, I just wish we could be just like other ordinary couples out there. When HE comes before HER.

Definition of FRIENDS

2009-12-28T02:08:00.000-08:00

Definition of FRIENDS

Sometimes, i just don't understand these few bunch of people whom I call friends. I just don't know what do they want in order someone can be consider as A FRIEND.

Honestly, this scenario isn't new for me. It happens ever since primary school. Good friends all turned into foes at the of the day. At first, I tried to understand, was is just me that I tend to loose friends most of the time? I guess I was by their side most of the time. I even sometimes put them in front rather than my family.

Probably the problem is me I guess. That's why I loose them. Is it just so wrong to be busy with work? finding money for my own satisfaction? for my mum and future? Or is it just so wrong to have my bf to come back home early just so that he will have a good rest before he go to work the next day? Or is it a crime to spend my precious time with my bf whenever I have the time? (FYI.. my time is like so precious.. since I have to work 6days a week and shift basis whereby my BF works 9-7 everyday). Must I be the only one who have to start texting and calling them to ask them out?

Sometimes, I just don't understand, a few of them would just feel so offended for some reason which I don't know WHAT IS IT? I don't back stab my true friends..but why must they? treating people like an outsider? as if we don't exist there..like hello... when you need help.. to whom did u turn urself to? ME ME n ME. Whenever THEY ALL NEED HELP.. why must you find ME.. if i am such a bad friend huh? sigh..

I know who my real friends are.. if you wanna play the "idiots with 2 faces game" yeaa.. let's do it! but unfortunately i don't have time to play that stupid game which only immature will do. Get a life! Try to be real friends rather then US all backstabbing each other from behind and pretend to be BESTFRIEND in from of each other. pfftt!

The Love Song

2009-12-23T09:20:00.000-08:00

The Love Song

Dear Bloggie,
This is my definition of love to him :)

(Everything I Do) I Do it For You - Bryan Adams

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there

All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

13 December 2009

2009-12-19T07:48:00.000-08:00

13 December 2009

Dear Love,

Year passes, and we're still together.. holding hands ... going through all the ups and downs..laughters and tears. Do know that you're the only love of my life nomatter how harsh time can be, nomatter how big our arguments can be.. I can always promise you that.. I'll never let go and I'll always be with you. This heart --> ♥ always belong you.. :)

Thank you for the greatest anniversary gift ever.. its priceless to me k sayang..

the time we spent together..means alot.. I love you :)

I hope December 2010 wishes will come true.. Insyaallah <3

HOPES might be dissapointing but I always have the faith in us.. and .....

I BELIEVE :)

2009-12-01T23:55:00.000-08:00

Quick updates!

--> ENJOYING my new work place. yea yea yea.. back as a hotelier in Mandarin Oriental Hotel..Kuala Lumpur.. a lil tough.. but watever.. atleast i'm doin things that i have passion in ritey?

--> FRIENDS? same o' same. I miss my 3 beshties sisters.. Usmie.. Erien and Iera.. those were the times. Ups n Downs ..laughters and tears.. how I wish we can have like a reunion AGAIN.. but this time.. a VACATION reunion.. shud be fun kan? hehe.. (sorry ..cuz i have like this ISSUES with this CAPS LOCK.. trying to express my emotions in my blog since these days i am so EMOTION-LESS.. so..blablablaaaa)

--> Deariee Ikin n Apek came for a short holiday in KL. unfortunately i had to do afternoon shift so i have to like spend my time with them at night. aww...all plans RUINEEEE! 1st nite..dropped them at heritage for clubbings..(i cant go since bf said no more clubsiess fer mwaaa)..next day took them to hartamas... tibe2 Hartamas was like so KOSONG daripada so damn PACKED usually. forgot it was monday night. geez. the last night i was like planning to take them to go for shisha..kat Carlos at Pavillion.. again.. i dunno since when that place start to close at 12am.. am I just so outdated or wot??! ok so we crossed the street to lecka-lecka..tu pun they had did the last call.. who cares??!! fewh.. few pictures.. i uploaded at my FB.. sikit jee i realize.. :( so i plan to go to s'pore instead..hopefully soon....heeeeeeeeee :D

--> yes, i'm still in love with BF..Hafiz. Many things happened recently.. but he never got tired being with me.. nomatter how much i bugged him.. tortured him ... hurt him.. i sound BAD already rite? imagine he has been there all this time...suffered.. but yea.. i can't find anyone who's better then him out there anymore.. i just wish we'll have a happy ending together ..marriage..babies...weee.. honeymoons.. anniversaries... family vacations..till our last breath together.. :) (i sound like a burden already kan..heee) i love you Mohd Hafiz <3

My Words of Sorry

2009-10-11T07:56:00.001-07:00

My Words of Sorry

I get angry all the time, and I don't know why
Its not only because of you, its my fault too
To be honest I have to admit, my reasons aren't very legit
And to be mad at you, a real girlfriend should hardly do

All I ever do now is get mad, then cause you to be sad
After I do, I honestly feel extremely bad
Getting angry, making you sad, telling you what do
How can you put up with the things I put you through?

The truth is you're a great boyfriend without me knowing it
I realize now you just have a different way of showing it
Having to change who you are because of me, Definately wouldn't make me happy

So please don't because I really like you the way you are
Even though it might make loving you hard.

You're all I could ever want.
You're all I need.
And there is noone better than you.

I'm sorry for all the arguments sayang.. i love you ♥

End of my Banking Career

2009-10-07T06:26:00.000-07:00

End of my Banking Career

The shortest career path i had ever been through. 7 Days to be exact! HAHAHA :)
Amazing kan?? Well yea.. it was still a great experience in Public Bank though..
to learn something which i'm totally blurrrr off... numbers!!
like I have any Idea about what is the definition of Insurance Policies.. gahahaa~ :p

I'm leaving for Mandarin Oriental Hotel.. yeaaappp!~
Finally back as a hotelier.. nuf said..hehe~ xD

My Public Bank ID Card (#47104) as memory of the 7 glorious days with the Bank ♥

Life oh Life! Lovin' it

2009-10-03T21:49:00.000-07:00

Life oh Life! Lovin' it

1) I have always wanted to fly back in that very big blue sky.. but yeah, nomore chance i guess since I had put on so much weight! (PROOF OF EXTRA ORDINARY HAPPINESS ♥) nomore regrets..atleast I had tried ..plus things happen for a reason innit??!

2) I'll probably will be quiting this job at Public Bank (ME+BANKS??..INSURANCE TO BE EXACT..???!!!) and back to the hotel line. An interview will be set next week so wish me luck! I know I know... I wish to stick to a career now too.. guess I'm just born to be a hotelier for life seyh!

3) I am so gonna miss my dearest cousin..Munirah. Maybe we're aren't close as how we used to be when we were kids. Buy yeaa... i still remember those moments. Playing barbies and rebut all the toys... Me being the cry baby ..merajuk all the time..haha~ then we use to swim in that baby pool in front of my house..those we the times eyh cuzzy? ;)

So gonna miss you when u leave. I know you can do it and I'll always pray for the best for you. When you come back home next year.. we'll make sure to bring back those cuzzy wuzzy moments together aight!!~ u take care and keep in touch k.... *huggssiessss* ;p

My Heart Bleeds

2009-10-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

MY HEART BLEEDS

That word hurts me. Tears keep on falling from my eyes. Yes, the emotional part of me again. No more rings or text for tonight cuz this time, that cut.... is really deep...it BLEEDS now..nite ♥

Aidifitri '09 Memories

2009-09-27T04:53:00.000-07:00

Aidifitri '09 Memories

This year's raya was exhausting..fewh! From family..relatives and friends......
free foods all the way! but yupyup... we had lotsa fun! ;)

here are few pictures as memory of AidilFitri '09

Jumpe plastic choki choki depan rumah Mia

saje nk gak letak gamba ni cuz hafiz ade..hehehe

us at Afnan's

kami <3

kami lagi...hehehe ;p

daaa~ xD

An Old Fwenzie coming to Kay Elll!~

2009-09-21T09:17:00.001-07:00

An Old Fwenzie coming to Kay Elll!~

my ohh my!!~ a dearie friend of mine from singapore..Ashie is coming to kl..yeayy!!~ been years since i last met her.. and those were the crazy times. Rindu nyeee..Can't wait!!~ ;)

Ella..Me..Ashie

We're Back Okay :)

2009-09-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

We're Back Okay :)

I cannot stay mad at him for long. He sent this to my FB .. ♥

Sometimes your heart lies for some reason.. which most of the time will create a HUGE disaster. besides..it was my fault too for being so damn over protective..when i know he's not doing nothing and still love me.. he even decided to come back on the 3rd raya instead of 4th raya~ and yet i still have doubts on him.. stupid me kan?~ watever it is... he's forever mine :)

im terribly sorry for the doubts k love.. ♥

Eid Mubarak '09

2009-09-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

Eid Mubarak '09

Today's the 1st day of Syawal. Same yearly routine. I woke up as early as 7am (lambat sbenanyee..hee~) and pusing pusing... texting my other half who's currently on the north side of the country and susah nak ada coverage :D

Amazingly, this year I'm the first to dress up in Baju Kurung and sit on the dining table waiting for the usual Raya Breakfast with mum and others. Tapi sumer org belum siap till 10.30am so I decided to have my first round of lemang and rendang daging dulu..eheheee xD

Takbir raya this year.. I don't know.. I felt so....sad?? I realize that I had done nothing to remember this year's Ramadhan when I actually know that it was the holly month. I should have grab the chance when i had it but i did not..ermm..next year..? itupun kalau ada rezeki and panjang umur :(

Then.. suddenly I was not feeling so good... my heart keeps on saying sumthing is wrong.. and yeaa... that girl from the past texted my boifren for hari raya i guess.. damn it~ she just doesn't gets english does she? i don't care either it's a raya text or watever.. but the main point is she contacted him back...urhhh~ i thank god that he is being truthful and honest enuf to tell me the truth. (Or atleast I hope he is)

Is this just the ordinary PMS disease? I rili wanna give him all the space that he needs but ..aargghhh!!~ those things from the past keeps on haunting me nomatter how much i trust him...ohh God help me... :(

p.s: text not delivered again.

2009-09-19T01:43:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI
MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN
:)

P.S : Hafiz has reached Alor Setar and I'm officially missing him ♥

Why am I so depressed? tada!

2009-09-16T02:24:00.000-07:00

Why am I so depressed? tada!

Things that contributes to my depression currently. . 0.o :

allowance! (cepat lahh bank in!!!) I need to do my last minute raya shopping!!!~ urhh o.0
i have nothing to do everyday except facebooking 24/7 - free till 28th Sept
Sayang is working and going back kampung for a week starting this saturday morning (raya!!).. im gonna miss him badly!!!~ :(
I don't think I loose so much weight during ramadhan cuz I do alot of eating activities after buka too.

yada yada yada... taaaa!~

Girls Talk

2009-09-15T08:19:00.000-07:00

Girls Talk

Today buka puasa with usmie :)
It was great.. i was craving for Black Pepper Steak .. the one at Uptown Damansara jee.. (too much of cravings this Ramadhan kan..haha).. finally ..fewh~ *burp* excuseee mwaa.. heee :D

But we spent most of our time talking about ..errmm.. more like girls talk..ya noe.. *winksss*
A question to ask..why must a perfect and beautiful relationships been ruin by these pest? Aren't they satisfied with what they have? If they were really good, then why do they end up ruining people's happiness? or should I say why don't they have a happiness of their own?

Enuf with the singles bothering the couples. I just hope it won't be happening to me this time again cuz I had enuf of it in the past. I have faith and trust in him and never wanna be betrayed. Like Ella, a singaporean friend of mine blogged, credit to Ella (http://sinfully-tuamor.blogspot.com//) :

Treat every relationship as if it's the last one,
then you will know how to give.
Treat every moment as if it's the last day,
then you will know how to treasure.
Treasure what you have right now,
or else you may regret one day.

Till my next entry ♥

Sayang and his New Glasses

2009-09-13T23:54:00.000-07:00

Sayang and his New Glasses

Finally Sayang bought himself a pair of new glasses *adorableee* heee :D
The amazing thing was, for months (excluding the years we have known each other..hehe) he has been picking me up from home and only now he realize how clear is Genting Highland from me houziee.. lol~ How bad is his eye sight without Mr. Specky riteyyy?! haa ;p

Me wuvviee wuvvieee Pixxiees :D ♥

After our Fries and Coke..

hatred.

2009-09-13T00:42:00.000-07:00

I HATE HER!!
i also hate those annoying people!

I FOUND MY CHOKI CHOKI!

2009-09-12T23:54:00.000-07:00

I FOUND MY CHOKI-CHOKI!!

ohh yesss.. i found it i found my choki choki! weee!!~ ;p
At the mamak stall next to Jumma.. since i was so desperate for it..
i took it eventhough it cost for 90cents for 2 sticks! (I bought 4 sticks- RM1.80!)
the best part was.. after i bought it.. then zaim told me.. why i didn't go to Ali B and buy my chokiesss.. (just across Jumma) 5 sticks for RM1... damn it!! why was i so dumb?! terlupeeeee .. o.0

no pictures was captured cuz I was so excited eating my chokieee..
puff!! abis 4 sticks.. heee!~ xD

Craving for Choki Choki!

2009-09-11T23:23:00.001-07:00

Craving for Choki Choki!

Oh please? I'm seriously craving for it.. been weeks since i had one! +_+
for the first time in my life sangat susah nak beli choki choki!!
before this it was like EVERYWHERE.. RM1 and u can get 5 sticks!! arrgghh!!~

Can u imagine.. i went to Mobil at TTDI .. (at the convenience shop).. NONE! dah habis..
and then i tried my luck at 7E ..Shell station nearby my house.. 3 times in a week.. NONE!!~
and last night i went to the 7E next to NZ Restaurant.. pun dah abis.. sad sad :((

oohh God... wot happennnn????!

I Miss You Chokiesss ♥

Baby Sitter Anyone? Pick meeee!

2009-09-10T23:13:00.000-07:00

Baby Sitter Anyone? Pick meeee!

While Bibik was cleaning up mummy's room for raya, me and arif spend quite a lot of "quality" time together today. lol~ For those who haven't meet my lil nephew Arif Aiman, yes he's a very cute, charming and a VERY ANNOYING 4 years old kid. +_+ haa.

But today, he behaved. Alhamdulillah :) Good Boy .. *patpat*
FYI all mums, I'm good at baby sitting now. Pictures below are the proofs of my excellent baby sitting skills. Effective today I need to start collecting allowance for each hour i baby sit. *evil grins* mwahaha :D

Been force to senyum and say, "Acu is a good Baby Sitter"

*Senyum Iklas* "Acu is the BEST baby sitter ever!"

An Antique.. Raya 2006.. heeee! xD

Our First Obstacle

2009-09-09T23:10:00.000-07:00

Our First Obstacle

I'm starting to get fade up of myself. Not knowing how to make things right anymore *tears*

"Money is hard to earn. Life is hard to live. Love is hard to stay. "- my quote of the day.

Why do I suddenly feels like my love is fading away. Why do I feel insecure everytime when he overspent? Or he just doesn't care about our future plans anymore? I was harsh, yes I admit. But why can't he try to change? why why why??????????? Just that one lil tiny part .. pls :(

A Stressful Sahur

2009-09-07T23:35:00.000-07:00

A Stressful Sahur

Money is just everything nowadays innit?? Damn it! what happen to those quotes? "Money can't buy love" and blablablaaaa...

After Sahur this morning, mum was talking all about her future son in-law's criteria. She wants me to get whatever I desire now before i get married and if possible she wants me to get someone like my brother in-law (Does that mean she doesn't like my bf now??? *tears*) . My sis doesn't have to work for anything. You get what I mean?? But the main point is.. is my dearie sister all happy with all that she has rite now? :(
Mum just doesn't want me to be the one paying for all my family expenses in future. Which I don't want it to happen either. But we can always share to make things work right. That's the main reason why we both have to work. (OH GOD I NEVER KNOW IT'S SO HARD TO LIVE NOWADAYS!)

My brother started just like Hafiz himself. And look at him now! He manage to have a very happy family of his own. I hate talking about people relationships or marriage cuz I haven't get till that stage yet and only God knows how good/bad it will turn to be later in life. Anyhow, a mother's instinct is always right... *tears* she's still my mum.. and I only have her rite now and I need her blessings.

Dear Love,
I don't what anything to get in between us sayang. I know it's hard to survive out there with what we have now but I wish and I really wish we will have a better life in future. I never wanna spend my life with anyone else but you. We went through alot together and I'm not gonna give up. Nomatter how harsh her words can be at times, I just need you to be patients and respect her. Just remember, when I ran away from home, who does she call to bring me back home. You wasn't it? Cuz she has the faith in you. We just give both our family some respects and Insyallah we'll get their blessings. I love you Mohd Hafiz and this comes straight from my heart. ♥

Buka Puasa with My Siblings of STW :)

2009-09-07T01:51:00.000-07:00

Buka Puasa with My Siblings of STW :)

Goshh!!~ It has been awhile since our last outing together! Been months!!~ But last nite was hella fun! Buka puasa took us for like what?? 30minutes?? and the rest of the crazee nite .. ohh only God knows how well it went!~ :p

Movie was great too!! we went to watch "I love you, Beth Cooper" LMAO!~ :D

Well.. the family of STW grows from day to day... but our true friendship still remains. We have the good times and the bad times together but yet we're still HERE, TODAY, TOGETHER. Im glad that in this path of life, I get to know all of you guys and it means alot to me. Love all of you so much *huggsies*

Apart of The Gorgeous Babes

Apart of Our Dearest Brothers

Confusion

2009-09-02T00:46:00.000-07:00

We often heard about break ups nowadays.. changing partners is just a small matter now. The boy/gurl is mine .. the boy/gurl is also your's. You loose him ..you'll get another one in just a glimpse! What sadden me most is that sometimes, your so called BFFs is behind it all the time.

I've encountered kinda few cases. Can you imagine you very own bestfriend whom you trusted most, whom you have sharing secrets together cheated on you back and dated your boyfriend? Worse, even married couples got into divorce cuz of the third party interference in their relationship (Your bestfriend). Why again? I have no idea. Satisfaction maybe huh?

So boys, don't go and blame you wifey or your gurlfren if they tend have that jelousy in them which sumtimes we tend used it inappropriately ( goes to me too.. ). We gurls just feel insecure at times listening to all this nonsense. Trust is there but what happened to those innocent couples? too much of trust till they got backstabbed by their own besties.

Karma is always fair though. I blog this cuz juz read my friend's status on FB and just pop up on my mind. Why not just leave the happy couples alone. No point dating people's partner nomatter if they're happy together or not. The main point is, will you be as happy if someone did the same to you? I doubt so.

Guys and Their Cars!

2009-08-30T00:47:00.000-07:00

OMG! I just simply lost my words for this. I totally don't know how else to advice my dearieee most beloved boifren to control his expenses on his car. Months after months, boys can really spend on cars don't they. What if we girls wanna go out for shopping or maybe eat at a fancy restaurant once in awhile.. their answer will totally be a "Nono" innit?

I wonder, a hundred bucks is nuthing to them. But when it comes to shop for his lovable gf over here, it always spells as e.x.p.e.n.s.i.v.e . urhh~ I never ask for anything though and I know he's never been culcalative towards me but I so need him to learn the definition of "saving". How am I suppose to trust if he's serious being with me if he keep on spending on irrelevant things. Till what age should I wait for him to propose me then? 40?? if the savings is enough by then though~ +_+

Ohh God, please let him now what was the message I was trying to convey to him. I love him and I hate people spending money for such unimportant stuffs. It's not wrong to have a hobby or interest but you gotta spend based on your ability to spent innit?

*SPEECHLESS MODE**

Falling from Flying..

2009-08-29T00:39:00.000-07:00

Do you have a dream job? Have you ever let go that chance of your life without thinking any longer and regretted? Hell yea, I am in that situation.

Ever since I was a little girl, I have always dream of flying, going to people's country and learn about their culture. I am obsessed with beautiful cabin crew uniforms and envy how beautiful and lucky they can be.

When I was 19, right after I was done with my hospitality course..final year's practical.. I walked-in for this cabin crew recruitment agency and wallaaa! I was there.. I WAS THEREEEE!! Can you imagine?? That job that I had always dream of.. but it last for awhile cuz of my stupid decision making skills ... i quite half way.. I miss my mum.. very much.. and she was alone I just dont have the heart to live her behind for my own satisfaction.. I'd lost my dad.. and mummy is just the only one whom I have right now.. if i were to loose her.. I'll regret for my whole life~ :(

Now, seeing my friends flying here and there.. I envy them and how I wish I was still with them.. I can never fly again... what a life.. such a looser i am eyh? +_+

Some memorable pictures of mine.. i miss you guys.. *tears*

Babah - My Merdeka Hero! :)

2009-08-28T01:42:00.000-07:00

Ever listened to this song before? The part "Merdeka!" actually make me fall into tears everytime when i listen to this song. Thinking how Babah and his fellow friends used to sacrifice their life for our country. People can say that I am just being ... whatever that word is but the truth is, I am proud of my dad.. proud of those people who were there when the Union Jack was pulled down. Does it ever cross your mind what will happen if those heroes did not have the courage to pull the flag down on that day? We might not be an independent country yet I guess.

Babah used to tell me, when Tunku Abdul Rahman wanted him to pull down the Union Jack, there were hundreds of British Armies around them ; armed, waiting for the right moment to shoot down whoever who have the guts to bring down their flag but Babah said, he did it for his country ..it was worth doing and Alhamdulillah..52 Years of Merdeka .. thanks to the Heroes!~ I heard there were 5 of them on that memorable day, Arwah Babah was the one who pulled down the flag when the clock striked 12am on 31st of Aug 1957. I'm proud to be his daugther!!~ :) They all have passed away years ago including my most beloved dad, leaving one behind. I forgot his name but he's almost 109 years old today :)

But as the Malays used to say, "Harimau Mati meninggalkan Belang, Manusia Mati meninggalkan Nama". People nowadays celebrate Merdeka inappropriately. No offense, but that's not the way we Malaysian should be acting. It is all about carrying the pride of our country and us as the people of Malaysia. Happy 52nd Merdeka Day to all dearest Malaysians ♥

I googled this few pictures of Babah online :)

Babah pulling down the Union Jack on 31/08/57 -0000Hrs

With Tunku Abdul Rahman

In memories of my Dearest Dad - Tan Sri Dato' Mohamed Tahir B. Abd Majid ♥

First buka puasa with Sayang <3

2009-08-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

This picture was not taken just now . . hee <3

Today is like our first Buka puasa together. Feels like ..wow.. hehe :)

Like any other ordinary buka puasa, we talked mostly about our past relationships.. (mcm baru kenal semalam.. LOL) where did it all went wrong.. and it was nice to know.. eventhough a lil bit of jealousy occurs in the middle.. ye laa.. like you won't get jealous if your bf talks abt those sweet moments when they were together kan..aiyaya~ o.0
But I managed to control my jealous-ness .. pass is pass though .. :D

ok.. chill yin.. chill... im happy and full!~ *burp!*

Going Back Skinny!!

2009-08-27T00:22:00.000-07:00

Skinniest ever me .. o.0~

For the last 5months, you have no idea how much i have put on weight! Look at the pictures below and compare to my current size now..whoahh!!~ seriously, I need to get fit again!!~

Solutions:

1) Ramadhan ..
2) Gym after raya .. $$$!!!!
3) Less eating more exercising ...
4) No junkiessss.. no cheeseeeeee....
5) No rice after 8pm ...

anymore suggestions??? :)

This shirt doesn't look nice on me anymore!

hah.. see... my arms.. no flabbiness..arghh!

I NEED SERIOUS MOTIVATION +_+

Realizing the Beauty of Love

2009-08-26T03:16:00.000-07:00

After years of suffering from Traumatize Love Experience, I decided to give my heart a second chance to believe in love once again. And yeah, Alhamdullilah with the blesses of people around me, everything seems to turn out well this time :)

For the first few months of sharing our love, there were lots of arguments been brought up, we love each other but yet understanding still wasn't there at that time. But I don't blame neither of us cuz in this relationship, we tend to learn about each other's flaws instead of letting lust to take control of our love.

He was so patients with me being so stubborn and emotional and sensitive, yada yada yada.. but he never quites. He stopped me from doing unimportant things, he managed to stop my bad habits and he managed to proof to me that he actually loves me for who i am. Ain't because of my looks (which yeaa.. horrible!), ain't bcuz of my kaching! (not working now though..) .. he spent most of his time with me.. oohh God... u have no idea how thankful i am to have him in my life..

I know .. u guys will go like..."nehh.. nuthin special.. u're juz madly in love..it will soon be gone.." hell yeahh i am love!!~ hehe :D I just wish this feeling will last for eternity.. cuz it's simply BEAUTIFUL :)

I love you Mohd Hafiz ♥

Career Dilemma

2009-08-05T06:34:00.000-07:00

Total disaster~ A conflict in life where by I have to choose the so called "Career" Well.. decision has been made, hospitality has always been my passion but then again, there are alot of needs to be fulfilled.

.. I so need to get my degree . . (which I will never get if I'm still a hotelier)
.. I need a higher pay
.. I need time to be with my dearest mum..family and beshtiesss
.. and ofcourse quality time with my sayang :) ♥ ♥

In order to complete the above desires.. *LOL* I took a challenge to join banking.. which is kinda HORROR in a way.. but yea.. challenges keep you moving forward ritey? ;) So I went to Public Bank yesterday for an Interview and they offered me the position of Sales Executive for Bancassurance. Good pay .. tough task .. no harm trying I guess.

Wish me luck.. they gonna call in 2 weeks time. fewh~

Whoah . .Newbie!

2009-08-05T05:53:00.000-07:00

Back Blogging! Yup . . will update soon! **peaceeeeeee** :D