This year's raya was exhausting..fewh! From family..relatives and friends......
free foods all the way! but yupyup... we had lotsa fun! ;)

here are few pictures as memory of AidilFitri '09


Jumpe plastic choki choki depan rumah Mia

saje nk gak letak gamba ni cuz hafiz ade..hehehe

us at Afnan's

kami <3





my ohh my!!~ a dearie friend of mine from singapore..Ashie is coming to kl..yeayy!!~ been years since i last met her.. and those were the crazy times. Rindu nyeee..Can't wait!!~ ;)





I cannot stay mad at him for long. He sent this to my FB .. ♥







Sometimes your heart lies for some reason.. which most of the time will create a HUGE disaster. besides..it was my fault too for being so damn over protective..when i know he's not doing nothing and still love me.. he even decided to come back on the 3rd raya instead of 4th raya~ and yet i still have doubts on him.. stupid me kan?~ watever it is... he's forever mine :)

im terribly sorry for the doubts k love.. ♥




Today's the 1st day of Syawal. Same yearly routine. I woke up as early as 7am (lambat sbenanyee..hee~) and pusing pusing... texting my other half who's currently on the north side of the country and susah nak ada coverage :D

Amazingly, this year I'm the first to dress up in Baju Kurung and sit on the dining table waiting for the usual Raya Breakfast with mum and others. Tapi sumer org belum siap till 10.30am so I decided to have my first round of lemang and rendang daging dulu..eheheee xD

Takbir raya this year.. I don't know.. I felt so....sad?? I realize that I had done nothing to remember this year's Ramadhan when I actually know that it was the holly month. I should have grab the chance when i had it but i did not..ermm..next year..? itupun kalau ada rezeki and panjang umur :(

Then.. suddenly I was not feeling so good... my heart keeps on saying sumthing is wrong.. and yeaa... that girl from the past texted my boifren for hari raya i guess.. damn it~ she just doesn't gets english does she? i don't care either it's a raya text or watever.. but the main point is she contacted him back...urhhh~ i thank god that he is being truthful and honest enuf to tell me the truth. (Or atleast I hope he is)

Is this just the ordinary PMS disease? I rili wanna give him all the space that he needs but ..aargghhh!!~ those things from the past keeps on haunting me nomatter how much i trust him...ohh God help me... :(

p.s: text not delivered again.








Things that contributes to my depression currently. . 0.o :

• allowance! (cepat lahh bank in!!!) I need to do my last minute raya shopping!!!~ urhh o.0
• i have nothing to do everyday except facebooking 24/7 - free till 28th Sept
  
• Sayang is working and going back kampung for a week starting this saturday morning (raya!!).. im gonna miss him badly!!!~ :(
• I don't think I loose so much weight during ramadhan cuz I do alot of eating activities after buka too.

yada yada yada... taaaa!~





















Oh please? I'm seriously craving for it.. been weeks since i had one! +_+
for the first time in my life sangat susah nak beli choki choki!!
before this it was like EVERYWHERE.. RM1 and u can get 5 sticks!! arrgghh!!~

Can u imagine.. i went to Mobil at TTDI .. (at the convenience shop).. NONE! dah habis..
and then i tried my luck at 7E ..Shell station nearby my house.. 3 times in a week.. NONE!!~
and last night i went to the 7E next to NZ Restaurant.. pun dah abis.. sad sad :((

oohh God... wot happennnn????!

While Bibik was cleaning up mummy's room for raya, me and arif spend quite a lot of "quality" time together today. lol~ For those who haven't meet my lil nephew Arif Aiman, yes he's a very cute, charming and a VERY ANNOYING 4 years old kid. +_+ haa.

But today, he behaved. Alhamdulillah :) Good Boy .. *patpat*
FYI all mums, I'm good at baby sitting now. Pictures below are the proofs of my excellent baby sitting skills. Effective today I need to start collecting allowance for each hour i baby sit. *evil grins* mwahaha :D






I'm starting to get fade up of myself. Not knowing how to make things right anymore *tears*

"Money is hard to earn. Life is hard to live. Love is hard to stay. "- my quote of the day.

Why do I suddenly feels like my love is fading away. Why do I feel insecure everytime when he overspent? Or he just doesn't care about our future plans anymore? I was harsh, yes I admit. But why can't he try to change? why why why??????????? Just that one lil tiny part .. pls :(






Money is just everything nowadays innit?? Damn it! what happen to those quotes? "Money can't buy love" and blablablaaaa...

After Sahur this morning, mum was talking all about her future son in-law's criteria. She wants me to get whatever I desire now before i get married and if possible she wants me to get someone like my brother in-law (Does that mean she doesn't like my bf now??? *tears*) . My sis doesn't have to work for anything. You get what I mean?? But the main point is.. is my dearie sister all happy with all that she has rite now? :(
Mum just doesn't want me to be the one paying for all my family expenses in future. Which I don't want it to happen either. But we can always share to make things work right. That's the main reason why we both have to work. (OH GOD I NEVER KNOW IT'S SO HARD TO LIVE NOWADAYS!)

My brother started just like Hafiz himself. And look at him now! He manage to have a very happy family of his own. I hate talking about people relationships or marriage cuz I haven't get till that stage yet and only God knows how good/bad it will turn to be later in life. Anyhow, a mother's instinct is always right... *tears* she's still my mum.. and I only have her rite now and I need her blessings.

Dear Love,
I don't what anything to get in between us sayang. I know it's hard to survive out there with what we have now but I wish and I really wish we will have a better life in future. I never wanna spend my life with anyone else but you. We went through alot together and I'm not gonna give up. Nomatter how harsh her words can be at times, I just need you to be patients and respect her. Just remember, when I ran away from home, who does she call to bring me back home. You wasn't it? Cuz she has the faith in you. We just give both our family some respects and Insyallah we'll get their blessings. I love you Mohd Hafiz and this comes straight from my heart. ♥







Goshh!!~ It has been awhile since our last outing together! Been months!!~ But last nite was hella fun! Buka puasa took us for like what?? 30minutes?? and the rest of the crazee nite .. ohh only God knows how well it went!~ :p

Movie was great too!! we went to watch "I love you, Beth Cooper" LMAO!~ :D



Well.. the family of STW grows from day to day... but our true friendship still remains. We have the good times and the bad times together but yet we're still HERE, TODAY, TOGETHER. Im glad that in this path of life, I get to know all of you guys and it means alot to me. Love all of you so much *huggsies*

Apart of Our Dearest Brothers

We often heard about break ups nowadays.. changing partners is just a small matter now. The boy/gurl is mine .. the boy/gurl is also your's. You loose him ..you'll get another one in just a glimpse! What sadden me most is that sometimes, your so called BFFs is behind it all the time.

I've encountered kinda few cases. Can you imagine you very own bestfriend whom you trusted most, whom you have sharing secrets together cheated on you back and dated your boyfriend? Worse, even married couples got into divorce cuz of the third party interference in their relationship (Your bestfriend). Why again? I have no idea. Satisfaction maybe huh?

So boys, don't go and blame you wifey or your gurlfren if they tend have that jelousy in them which sumtimes we tend used it inappropriately ( goes to me too.. ). We gurls just feel insecure at times listening to all this nonsense. Trust is there but what happened to those innocent couples? too much of trust till they got backstabbed by their own besties.

Karma is always fair though. I blog this cuz juz read my friend's status on FB and just pop up on my mind. Why not just leave the happy couples alone. No point dating people's partner nomatter if they're happy together or not. The main point is, will you be as happy if someone did the same to you? I doubt so.