Sometimes, i just don't understand these few bunch of people whom I call friends. I just don't know what do they want in order someone can be consider as A FRIEND.

Honestly, this scenario isn't new for me. It happens ever since primary school. Good friends all turned into foes at the of the day. At first, I tried to understand, was is just me that I tend to loose friends most of the time? I guess I was by their side most of the time. I even sometimes put them in front rather than my family.

Probably the problem is me I guess. That's why I loose them. Is it just so wrong to be busy with work? finding money for my own satisfaction? for my mum and future? Or is it just so wrong to have my bf to come back home early just so that he will have a good rest before he go to work the next day? Or is it a crime to spend my precious time with my bf whenever I have the time? (FYI.. my time is like so precious.. since I have to work 6days a week and shift basis whereby my BF works 9-7 everyday). Must I be the only one who have to start texting and calling them to ask them out?

Sometimes, I just don't understand, a few of them would just feel so offended for some reason which I don't know WHAT IS IT? I don't back stab my true friends..but why must they? treating people like an outsider? as if we don't exist there..like hello... when you need help.. to whom did u turn urself to? ME ME n ME. Whenever THEY ALL NEED HELP.. why must you find ME.. if i am such a bad friend huh? sigh..

I know who my real friends are.. if you wanna play the "idiots with 2 faces game" yeaa.. let's do it! but unfortunately i don't have time to play that stupid game which only immature will do. Get a life! Try to be real friends rather then US all backstabbing each other from behind and pretend to be BESTFRIEND in from of each other. pfftt!



Dear Bloggie,
This is my definition of love to him :)


(Everything I Do) I Do it For You - Bryan Adams


Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there

All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you










Dear Love,




--> ENJOYING my new work place. yea yea yea.. back as a hotelier in Mandarin Oriental Hotel..Kuala Lumpur.. a lil tough.. but watever.. atleast i'm doin things that i have passion in ritey?

--> FRIENDS? same o' same. I miss my 3 beshties sisters.. Usmie.. Erien and Iera.. those were the times. Ups n Downs ..laughters and tears.. how I wish we can have like a reunion AGAIN.. but this time.. a VACATION reunion.. shud be fun kan? hehe.. (sorry ..cuz i have like this ISSUES with this CAPS LOCK.. trying to express my emotions in my blog since these days i am so EMOTION-LESS.. so..blablablaaaa)

--> Deariee Ikin n Apek came for a short holiday in KL. unfortunately i had to do afternoon shift so i have to like spend my time with them at night. aww...all plans RUINEEEE! 1st nite..dropped them at heritage for clubbings..(i cant go since bf said no more clubsiess fer mwaaa)..next day took them to hartamas... tibe2 Hartamas was like so KOSONG daripada so damn PACKED usually. forgot it was monday night. geez. the last night i was like planning to take them to go for shisha..kat Carlos at Pavillion.. again.. i dunno since when that place start to close at 12am.. am I just so outdated or wot??! ok so we crossed the street to lecka-lecka..tu pun they had did the last call.. who cares??!! fewh.. few pictures.. i uploaded at my FB.. sikit jee i realize.. :( so i plan to go to s'pore instead..hopefully soon....heeeeeeeeee :D

--> yes, i'm still in love with BF..Hafiz. Many things happened recently.. but he never got tired being with me.. nomatter how much i bugged him.. tortured him ... hurt him.. i sound BAD already rite? imagine he has been there all this time...suffered.. but yea.. i can't find anyone who's better then him out there anymore.. i just wish we'll have a happy ending together ..marriage..babies...weee.. honeymoons.. anniversaries... family vacations..till our last breath together.. :) (i sound like a burden already kan..heee) i love you Mohd Hafiz <3