Today's the 1st day of Syawal. Same yearly routine. I woke up as early as 7am (lambat sbenanyee..hee~) and pusing pusing... texting my other half who's currently on the north side of the country and susah nak ada coverage :D

Amazingly, this year I'm the first to dress up in Baju Kurung and sit on the dining table waiting for the usual Raya Breakfast with mum and others. Tapi sumer org belum siap till 10.30am so I decided to have my first round of lemang and rendang daging dulu..eheheee xD

Takbir raya this year.. I don't know.. I felt so....sad?? I realize that I had done nothing to remember this year's Ramadhan when I actually know that it was the holly month. I should have grab the chance when i had it but i did not..ermm..next year..? itupun kalau ada rezeki and panjang umur :(

Then.. suddenly I was not feeling so good... my heart keeps on saying sumthing is wrong.. and yeaa... that girl from the past texted my boifren for hari raya i guess.. damn it~ she just doesn't gets english does she? i don't care either it's a raya text or watever.. but the main point is she contacted him back...urhhh~ i thank god that he is being truthful and honest enuf to tell me the truth. (Or atleast I hope he is)

Is this just the ordinary PMS disease? I rili wanna give him all the space that he needs but ..aargghhh!!~ those things from the past keeps on haunting me nomatter how much i trust him...ohh God help me... :(

p.s: text not delivered again.